This christmas

I really missed my mum! She has been living and working in the uk. I wanted to be with her and eat her food and laugh over a bottle of good red wine, its been 5yrs now. To all my friends and family whose mothers are still alive, treasure them and love them, appreciate them. I feel like this yet my mother is stil alive. My darling lil sister Vee lost her mother on the 20th of december and my heart and prayers go to her. There is a lot a girl needs their mother for, it doesnt matter how old you are. Well its really beyond mothers, its loved ones. Life is too short, give love and live life without holding back! This christmas, i learnt that family nd friends are priceless and we should treasure them always! God bless lets be like Christ and give mass love, while edifying one another and glorify God! I called and smsd all i treasure this christmas.I love you mum, i love you dad, i love you son, i love you family (God given and self selected), i love you friends, best of all its because christmas is the time the word became flesh. Not the best xmas, but i definately learnt love this christmas...

LOL! making me laugh is a cause for attraction.....

i wouldn't trade anything for joy in my life, to laugh and forget myself in the overflow of peace and joy. You know a girl has to laugh, it is very important for me especially, i love the adrenaline and the intensity of laughter, it helps me regulate my heart, free exercise and so much more laughter does for you. When i finish laughing i have this satisfaction, that nothing else except laughter would have satisfied me like that, lol, LOL, just the thought of laughing makes me break out into laughter, heish LOL, it is even sweeter when the joy is in the Lord, it even gives you strength.

i am reading an e-book "Why men don't listen and women can't read maps", in this book, it listen the things women look for men in man in their order which i definitely subscribe to; in order of importance are as follows;-
A
What Women
1. Personality
2. Humour
3. Sensitivity
4. Brains
5. Good body

food for thought..... for the men this is FYI, and women, please respond, do you agree

However, nonetheless a girl has got to laugh, i mean seriously, i would be more attracted to a man who goes out of his way to keep me between smiling and stitching laughter! that's me TendaiWenyasha!LOLEST!!!!

i like a friend and i want to tell him but......

i know that friends are friends because there is an attraction of some sort to each other, and there is so much link and love that at times i becomes all messy. You can be attracted, physically, spiritually,mentally, economically, sensually. intellectually, socially, academically, entertainmentically. or whatever else that made you friends in the first place.

i know i have great friends, the problem is my friends, the guys, they are such great friends i know i can recommend them to any of my girl friends. Just be careful to not fall in love with a friend, been there done that and got the t-shirt. AAm not saying there is anything wrong with it, but it only becomes a problem, when theyare not into you like that, and mostly its the ladies that like the guys and the guy is not interested, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Anyway i like a friend and i want to tell him but, what if its like the first time i liked a friend and they did not like me that way back?

Answered prayers!

Isaiah 49 vs 8-11.

On Tuesday evening, my sister an i went for prayers at Celebration Church west gate, for their weekly church prayers. My sister has been going to CCW for the last 4to 5 months i think, since she arrived from the UK after 11 years of being away from home.

Why i am blogging this is because God answers prayers, now we were praying fervently and Deacon Lesedi Mzwimbi was leading the prayers and he said, confess, strongly, and i don't care if you lose your voice, that this week, i will have an earthquaking miracle and answered prayer!

My sister was so determined she got her answered prayer today, her hearts desires have been fulfilled today, you know she not only believed, but she put some effort to it. How there you have it, faith with works is ALIVE, now she has two offers, when at first not even one was hopeful. I know she will Rock Gateway, she just has to decide whether its primary or high school, and she is being sponsored her teacher training program as well. Haaaaaaaaaaaa Jesus is so nice Mhani!

i just thank God that He is faithful, and so diligent in His promise, you know what the bible says, life and death is in the power of your tongue, now, what are you confessing and are you expecting your prayers to be answered hmmmmmmmmmmmm, i wonder?

The Lord of the Harvest!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow, i know that He is the Lord of the Harvest and His desire is that we live and not die, and that we see the His goodness in the land of the living. i heard something so profound that i wan to share, with those that don't mind. i was told by pastor Leo Tsumba, that, its one thing to pray, its another to pray and seek an answered prayer. he said mostly Christians we just pray and then live it at that, no! expect the answer to the prayer, and will fill glean expect that prayer to be answered. Isaiah 49 vs 8-11

i then thought wow, this is surely true, and i went home to meditate this word, do i expect my prayers to be answered or i just pray and leave it at that. The Lord is awesome, He immediately answered me with an analogy, that i must share. I then saw a field at harvest time, green and lovely full of life and reap, the other farmers in the other fields, were busy harvesting, and there i was just there admiring my harvest, i could see, it, feel it, touch it, i even ate some from the field, but, i just stood there and watched. i even then sat down, and thought, wow, i have arrived, then said, i deserve to rest now, the harvest/produce is here, if i rest a lil bit, i will get energy to then harvest they bounty harvest. i had fellow farmers pushing me to harvest, and i began irritable, saying i will, leave me alone, i will harvest, i even got angry and told then to mind their own business. I look back at my produce and smile, it was there, what was their problem, its not going anywhere(so i thought). some of the farmers even volunteered to help me harvest, but i refused, i did not trust them, and i knew i did not want to pay them for their work, because the i would have less, some even said we will do i for free, but i refused.

Its harvest time, i sense it, yes it is! the time has come for us to harvest, the breakthrough has happened and its time to harvest! what are you doing during harvest time? just watching? Anyway before i knew it i was looking at a field with dry produce, right before my eyes. i had dry produce and it was no longer useful to me, because the harvest was essential, when fresh, not dry but green and fresh. i was thinking i do not want harvest time to pass, me by, and there, i had planted, nurtured watered, wedded and had beautiful produce, but i was right there looking at it when it went dry, why, because , the prayer had been answered and i had to harvest but, i was living in the moment and enjoying the "experience of great produce", without harvesting it!

The Lord of the harvest from Isaiah 48 vs 17-18 is here, and wants you to listen and learn the seasons. I don't know about you but i was thinking, Nhai Mwari has Isaiah always been like this alive and real, its like you can taste the word, and His promises are clear and YES & AMEN. Do not let this season pass you by, we all have worked hard to a place of harvest, now get on with it! HARVEST YOUR PRODUCE, don't let it dry up and go to waste, these could be gum tree blessing, and we all know they take 7 years to be able to harvest them.

There could be things happening around you, that draw your attention from harvesting, could be getting tired to pray, or feeling discouraged, and i declare refreshing and strength, that you may have the God kind of grace to harvest your produce, the time is now, RIGHT NOW! if your combined harvester has a clog, its time to built a strong team to pray and fast with you. The clog might be unforgiveness, did you know that your level of forgiveness will determine your level of faith. If you forgive, u have faith that God is in control and will take care of the hurt, the pain, and all that has drawn you back. Unclog that combined harvester and get harvesting, He is the Lord of the Harvest!

Of course it was not going anywhere, but i did not know that slowly but surely, it was drying up, and soon will just be an experience. when other people are encouraging you to soldier on, and to be accountable, don't be mad, listen learn, and see, where u can benefit, so that we do this. The bible says, the harvest is plenty but the laborers are few. don't be selfish and refuse for other to help you harvest through prayer and holding your hand to harvest, the more people u have in your corner and harvest team, the faster you fill the barns to overflow. Don't be afraid to be accountable, or to be mentored, those are people, who can even remind you its harvest time, and to get HARVESTING! Learn to trust that people want to help you for nothing in return, come on think about it, would you be able to afford your mentor, if they sent you an invoice, you even pay up your accountability partner? Let them help you harvest, the harvest is yours! who is you Eunuch and who is you Naomi? who is you walking with you side by side, whose foot steps are you following, whom are you allowing to speak into your life? it makes a difference when you have these people.

It might not make sense, but if you catch anything from this blog, i say HE is the LORD of the HARVEST, get Harvesting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Discipline is the key to my new fit and sexy me

OK, so i know that i had stopped exercising and eating right because of so many lame excuses, including getting robbed and work wat wat. Yes of course you can get discouraged but its the will power and discipline that should get you back on the road.

So yes a back on the road and i is fun, today i did some gardening (the African way - kusakurira mugarden) and it was one workout i tell, you, the abs were screaming from the heat of the bending up and down, i totally recommend gardening at least for 30 straight minutes, its a brilliant way to work out.

Yesterday i went jogging and met an old school mate, Sharon Makanyanga, was totally inspired. she was jogging with such joy, or maybe it was the joy of seeing me. Well we all want to look the best we can, in that lovely summer dress, don't we? No, do not be fooled, its summer and we all better look hot this summer and me included. Am tired of not feeling good body wise, i have the most amazing smile and i have a beautiful personality, i now have to work on a fit and sexy body to go with.

i am not aiming to be like barbie because that would be silly, am saying fit and sexy in Gods eyes and mine, and those that matter to me, right now, am so unfit and well sexy is far from wat i feel.
Food, i will not lie has been one of my down falls, so am working on it, eating right and watching my portions and i am so happy Lucy and Kuda have joined me, in the eating well health plan and we wait the results, and we see it working out well.

Discipline is even easier when you have someone to be accountable to, right now everyday Mudiwawashe is my accountability partner in terms of workout and Lucy and Kuda food wise, and its paying big rewards, am sure i will learn even other important lessons from this season, and will make all areas of my life sensible. When i bring my body to discipline, i am sure i will do so for my finances, career, business and even relationship. when one aspect of your life, especially health wise is out of control, a lot of things will too. It helps when you put structures in place, they keep you accountable definitely. i am also drinking 3 litres of water a day or more, and this is so good for my facial skin especially, i am loving it, just the going to and fro to the ladies is the hustle, but hey its worth it.

So i choose to be disciplined Ntando, if you reading this and i will shock you, wait and see. My mother is one disciplined and determined woman, when she puts her mind to something she does it, and i choose to be my mother's child and watch me loose weight and become fit and sexy,
By the time december hits, and weddings need me to be a braids maid, ha ha ha, i will be looking curviously hot, i tell you, fearfully and wonderfully made, definitely.

Mudiwawashe, i know you can do it, yes we can, hold my hand, girl, and lets work this out. So tomorrow is another day of workout and eating right and bring it on..,. it took discipline to build Rome, to repair the walls of Jerusalem, for Esther to prepare for her king, for Jesus to be crucified on the cross, i choose to be discipline enough to see, my self satisfied and pleased at God's handiwork, ME............. so this time i am more disciplined, and discipline is my driving value!!!!!!!!!!

JOB's friends, What kind of a friend are you?

i am so much inspired by the way job held on tight and just believed that God was going to do His thing, God did not dare curse God, not even a word or a thought. You know this is a very crazy season we are in, i have sen a lot of my friends going through of of their toughest seasons yet, and they just pressing on. At time we think that, my situation is the worse possible one, and no one, can understand what is going on with you.

I am not sure wat is going with you (yes you, reading this post) but i know that you must be in a season that you need some people to just sit with you, like Job's friends Chapter 2 from vs 11 -13. At times you do not need much from those that are close and dear to you, but for them to be just there, not even say a thing, but sit with you and not even utter a word, solitude, just to show that we see you grief, we love you and we are here, they sat with Job for 7 days. Now, now, i know we do not have 7 days to spare, but surely you have a sms, or a call or something to show that you see and understand their grief.

I have had wonderful friends and family, that are there for me always. I was saying to some people yesterday (at pastor Vimbayi Mahiya's Father's funeral) that there are times you need your friends and those you love, when you get married, have a child, when you get robbed and when someone dies. I might have left out some of the times, but am sure you understand where i am coming from, To just be there for those you call friends or family, its vital.

When they are weak, you are strong, when you are strong they are weak, it goes without say. You know i have days when i am strong, and have encouraged myself in the Lord through the word and worship, i look for people i can encourage and hold their hand through the season they are going through. We need to move away from being seasonal friends and be those that are true and constant. However if you do know that the relationship is seasonal, then be effective in the season, you have been assigned in that person's life. If you are there to encourage, restore, bless, pray, deliver, love, or just be there, then do that, because there will come a season, when your needs will need these friends.

If you look in chapter 3 of Job, his friends then remind him of how strong he has been for others and an encourager and all, and now he has grown weak, and that is were they come in to remind him of whose he is, who he is, and whom his God is. this is amazing. i am loving Job so much and i have a better understanding of who he did it, he was confident in his God firstly and then he had a solid support structure, however, the wife leaves a lot to desire, that why Pastor E' says, are you marrying a wife or a knife. i will nt even go into that one, whom you marry wat wat, but yes, you need to know whether this person can stand by you and still believe in you, not falter when trouble come, hanzi curse God and die, eeeeeeeeee, abominationwooo.

Job took a while to get out in the place he was at because his loss was great, but he eventually did. And it didnot say he did not trust his God no! We all need time to mourn, but not throwing pity-parties, go through the emotions and carry on with life without dwelling to much on the event look forward with hope, that God's perfect will, shall come to pass, and your future is much better than your past. I for one is a person, who shelves my emotions and avoid dealing with them, and then when i least expect it, the creep up on me, and i feel emotionally exhausted, tired and in-between emotions. If someone asks me, whats wrong, i will probably say i do not know, which is true, because i am not sure which issue is surfacing, what happened, when and why. But Job, went through the emotions and friends listened, and helped, or not i doono, but he went through the emotions.

Well be there for someone, especially those you hold close, and then be random as well, and be there for those that seem like they do not have anyone, and see if God will not cause a great blessing to come upon you. We give out of the abundance of our hearts, wats in yours? What have you been banking in your heart, can we withdraw it and give it to someone? I know the rich have many friends, and we always focus on financially rich only, did you know the rich in love too have many friends, the rich in peace, the rich in encouragement, the rich in grace they too have loads of friends, the poor at these too have nothing, even their own neighbours and family despise them

What kind of a friend are you?

Hold me Lord.........

ok, so where to start its a monday and almost a week after i got robbed, the things i had spent my life working for, you wake up and there is nothing, like nothing in the house. i remember the day so clearly i did not want to think, my usual problem, i just carried on like there was nothing wrong, told myself, be strong don't be silly, people will think u do not have faith. Yes i was grateful noone got hurt, that they got in and out without hurting anyone i loved, but the biggest thing they had hurt was my heart and my will power to just trust. i feel so violated and aaaaaarrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh anger is somewhere there in the mix of things.

i know myself to have gone thru really crazy thing in like, facing domestic violence, staying in musasa project, being a single mother. loosing a man i had given my best years to someone else, then going thru a divorce, being alone, with my son and finding my way with Christ in me only, i know iknow, most christians would then say yes, thats all u need, and yes i know that, but there comes a point in you life you are like Lord, when is it my turn to experience sweet victory. one thing i know is that even those that love you will never know or understand wat is going on inside you, or how much you need help, and how far the help should go.

then you are those that think they are doing you a favour to talk to you, and that my life would stop without them, well that was like random, but hey, a girl need to go random at times.
Then you are in line to be a deacon and there are the watchdogs that just sit around and wait for you to make a mistake and take u out. then people forget that u need time to self and cmy child, they just dump on u things, ok, i know i allow them as well, but am better now, i can even say No, when i see it fit too. pressure! ok that was random too.

I am so weak, i feel like heish Lord, saka, ndosvika riini, ndichicelebrator other people's victories. Yes i know stand, having done all to stand, and like i said to my brothe r Bvumai, then why d i do all the standing while others are sitting or lying down, my legs will swell ka. . Yes yes, i hear you christians, its darkest before dawn, huh? ok, then its pitch black right now, someone tell me what time is it right. It is doing my head in. Yes, do not be fooled, i love my God i know what He has done for me and whta He keeps doing, am just tired. You hear people say the devil is there to steal kill and destroy, i even said that when i got robbed, and then today it hit me, why am i just content with the first half of John 10:10 and then when is my But He has come to give you life and life more abundantly.

i know we celebrate even the smallest of breakthrus, but heish, i would so love big ones. In my church there is a course called walking free, i thought to myself, maybe i need to go wash myself in something, and then i did, in the blood of Jesus, but ok, now wat, wait?? hmmmmmmmmm, heish the Juanita kinda wait, ahhhh! well i have not even exercised because handina strength yacho, i really am waitign to see, when it is my turn to just say heeeeeee! and i am thinking if i feel like this, how is my son, he is young and really needs the cover and support, i think i need to slow down and just be with Tinayemudiwa, but then again, a support system that is strong has helped me come this far.

Tinayemudiwa does not even feel secure to be home anymore, he wants out, because he consistantly thinks matsotsi will come and steal him this time. and to add insult to injury his dad, plays passive dad, and when it suits him, he looks for him, i just want him to be there for his son, call him, talk to him, i know he is going to the uk to see his dad, but then wat? will he feel loved and covered and protected and cherished. i fear that he will come back rejected and i will have a lot of damage control to do. ok, i have so many thougts right now and i did not even think i had all this.

i want my mother home, like seriously, as serious as a heart attack. there is no place u should go without your mother, (that too goes for my son, uk, hmmmm) i miss my mother, there is one time in april, my sister had just moved back from the uk for good, and we had a huge fight, and all i need was to be somewhere i was loved and cared for, i went to my dad's house(lol big mistake) Charity, my father's wife, whom by the way has never been abused or shouted at by anyone for coming to be a second wife, decides to illtreat me, all i know is wat goes around comes around, maybe not on you, but on the next generation. if you steal someone's husband be rest assured your daughter will experience the same thing, someone will take her, ok random again, focus tendi.

so Lord, ok, this is my simple plee today, hold me! i need you to be tangible right now, my emotions seem to be all over like body lotion, and yes i am strong, yes i can fight, and yes i ca do all things thru christ who strengthens me! so here i am Lord desperate for a touch, to hear your voice, to see your greatness, to shout and see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. well then i gues psalm 91 will have to get tired with me, because i will meditate on it day and night, i am not forgotten, i am the apple of God's eye, He brags about me all the time and likes to show off of my faithfulness.

there is no other name, the main name is the name of Jesus, He is able................

I have been bad, Michael Jackson Bad.............Heish

heish, i know, heish, has been like my new favourite world, lol! anyway, so why have i been MJ bad, its coz its been like wat 7 days and i have not exercised. i have been working late and getting home really late and tired, and then the temperature dropped and getting out of bed just got harder to get out of bed! Then well, the unthinkable happened, i saw Ntando's NOW look and i was like heish! she is so determined and focused and will ot let her 2 kids and husband, and full time job being mum stop her from looking hotter than Jolie, and now i know tomorrow its on.

Last week monday morning i weeded the garden and it was some work out. But i have since learnt to reduce mt portions, and i was telling Nyasha and Jayne that i need new under wear because am a dress size smaller. lol! well so tomorrow, i am going to jowalk and then come back and weed the rest of the garden. i have also learnt that the way i feel physically also tallies with my spiritual state, and i am not as intensely connected as i was when i was working out. i have had mad revelations this week, but i keep wondering if i could have serious moments with God if i was fit enough for the task.

Well thank you Ntando, you are my sweet dream girl or a beautiful mightmare, because when i saw your photo i was like Why not? No more MJ stunts. Rue Nyambuya sent me something to help with my work out and eating plan, but it will not open, i will sure make a plan. i have also noticed i have not been as productive this wek because of this exercise thing not firing! OK, bring it on! this is sooooo on!

Lol also when your not exrcising you stop blogging, ummmmmmmmm, MJ, heish, am back

This one was for Ntando.......

Waking up in the morning to go for a run in the deep and serious cold days of June are like the worst ever, Today i was really seriously thinking of not going for my jogwalk, and then i realised and remembered it was Ntando's birthday, and then i had to get out of bed and dedicate my jowalk to her, so i decided to walk a slid 2kms just for her 29th. So there you go babes happy birthday!

So i let the house and took a route i was not even sure i could walk it out in time to bath, and go to work, but well, i had a birthday girl in mind, and thus the jogging came in. Well i forgot to mention that those 3 ladies from my walking club went AWOL on me and decided to not walk this winter because its too cold, but hey, i have my own cross to carry and battle to fight!

So i jogged..... a lil!

LOL! i have been out with stomach cramps for two days, monday and tuesday, and had a running tummy, so i tried walking on monday and i had to pinch everything back in so that i do not run, lol! running tummy, catch the drift?

Anyway, so i decided aiwa kani, zvakwana, and i prayed, i said Lord, you know am on a mission ka nhai, a mission to be healthy, fit and sexy as a bonus, yes sexy, i want to be eye candy as well ahhh, who doesn't! lol! So yes today i woke up late at 545am, and still took my ipod, and started walking towards strathaven, its abt 1.5kms from my house. i think i had walked abt 500m, when i said aiwa ka let me try jogging, and well i did all the way to strathaven, and then brisk walked back home, and i felt so alive and my blood was rushing and i felt so goooood!

My friend Basil, whom was in my initial thread on facebook dropped by to see me at lunch and he was like hey, i see you loosing some weight, now wow, imagine wat that did to me, and i told MOMO and she is like Blog it and i am now. Its so great when people can notice, but even greater when the pants have some space in then, even when its still lil space, its space. BUT not space to eat more and fill up your tummy, NO, space to know that there is a wardrobe change soon.

Well Rungano, affectionately known as Ru, said she is now my states working out buddy, Ru is my longest surviving friend from grade 4! she said she will work out a plan for me to work out before i go to gym! Did i tell you Ntando wrote a blog on me, ok me and others but i was there, ME! So yes my support structure is so strong and is keeping me in check. Simba in Aussy, also askes and has decided to be regular to the gym himself.

i have also reduced the amount of food i eat now, into half and more veggies less carbs, but waiting on RU, for my Zim friendly wat to eat! so my tummy has shrunk and i am feeling good, my skin is clearing and i feel more confident. thanks for reading, til next time, exercise, exercise, exercise!

Keep walking...

YOu know one thing i am so sure about right now, is that the steps of the righteous are ordered by the Lord. At times we do not know why things happen the way they happen, or why we take turns and meet people and go to xool, and have children, or wateva it is that happens in our lifes. Well now i know its its even sweeter when you have Jesus as your Lord and Saviour, why? because the steps of the righteous are ordered by the Lord

So yesterday, my boss got so busy and could not walk with me between 4 and 5pm, and then we also have the action conference and i was expected to be there by 445pm, so then, i was really devaststed, because i thought to myself, aiwa ka, not again, procastination, and i was not on duty as floor manager so there was no walking around as usual.

So anyway i went home was in bed by midnight, and the old me would have cooked up an excuse like, ah, i went to bed late so haaa, another time. i set my alarm for 615am, before it even went off, i was up, i dressed, took my xool ipod(yes the diploma am doing gives us ipods for a month interval). My son Titi even said, "mum, are you going jogging?" and i said yes son, right now am walking but soon i will be jogging and he giggled, lol!

So the i was praising and brisk walking and sweating and all, then i met these 2 ladies, walking like they were coming to the end of their walk, and then we said good morning, like loyal walkers would do, with smiles on our faces, its a way of acknowleding the job well done. i then continued with my walk, as i was approaching home, i met Priscilla, one of the ladies, i had smiled back at and said hi, then i thought what do i have to loose, let me ask, where and how they walk each morning? She was really nice, she told me they are 3 ladies and they walk every morning from 530am for between 3-5kms a day except sundays, i was eager to ask if i could join then, then she beat me to it, she offered that i join them, WOW. really.

Then i thought tomyself, keep walking Tendai, TendaiWenyasha, when you make a decision on somrthing stick to it, now am waiting to be surprised whom am walking with, am sure one of these 3 women has my breakthru!

However boss lady, i told her wat happened, and she said :Tendai, i need to be serious, lets get going on MOnday", you know wat come monday, whether she walks with me or not i will walk after work and will keep walking..........

Support me

Well i have always known, yes i have, that i was over weight, it did not happen overnight, or because i decided to sit down and say, ohhhh,it would be great if i were over weight. i am not also going to list down the excuses of why, when, how and what happened for me to be this big and well unfit.

i have however realised that i choose to loose the weight, starting now, as i write i have realised that i could have a stroke and die, because i am overweight and unhealthy. I know Maureen and Ntando have my back on this one. It will not be easy i know, and it will take a lot of descipline and dedication, but i want to do this, for myself and my son. If am healthier i will live longer and i will enjoy the blessing of the Caleb descendants.

i want to lose about 20kgs plus by the end of the year, and i know i can do it, if those love me, will help me. i know there are those who will have a lot to say, others might even say, haiwawo anTendai, you will ot get anywhere, but you know what? am so done with this overweight thing, i want out, immediately!

BUT! its a process not an event, and am so starting the processright not, i want to be accountable to all those who care enough. Ok, Tendai, what is the action plan? am glad you asked
my boss and i starting tomorrow will be walking for an hour from 4-5pm, from Celebration centre harare to and fro the race course (to start with). Whne we are fitter, in two weekes time, we will the start our aerobics clases and the trademil. I will be telling you more about this soon, i have to work, please post your support, it would be most welcome....