as always i look forward to going to the gym because its my place of comfort and i feel great because i will be taking control of my body. From Sunday I even started going to the gym wearing a full fleece tracksuit to increase heat so that i sweat from the heat and from the workout. With full determination to achieve my desired results, i look forward to going to the gym after work!
I have been hurt, oh gosh! so many time by people that i loved, trusted and opened my life for. some close friends, family and others i dated or otherwise. In this regard, I had vowed 2 never to cry coz of especially a man! I even sang and had on repeat, Mary J Blige's am not gonna cry! well it was all good in the hood; Until Farai my gym instructor happened to me last night!!! I literally cried & begged for mercy. it all started off very well and enjoying my session, when he just said your body is too used to the same routine, we want to shock it today, it didnt register that i was going to have an intensier workout.
Toward the end of an intense 1hour 45mins workout, my body couldn't take it anymore my legs were hurting and shaking, my temperature was high and i couldn't breath properly, i screamed for mercy doing my second set of sit-ups, Fari would hear of it. i did finish the set and came off the sit-up bunch to give way to my paired partner. i crawled off the bunch and rested my head on the treadmill trying to catch my breath, and tears starting flowing.
i hated myself for letting go like that, i was crying from pain and disappointment. Thinking to myself if i deserved all this pain because i had brought this upon myself. i felt unattractive, useless and dejected. I felt right there and then to give up and never come back to the gym! i had had enough pain for the day, my body was indeed shocked and caving in on me! i was emotionally overwhelmed, tears sweat and more sweat, o couldn't control myself.... finally i had cried at the gym! i weighed my pain vs my benefits and realized i will keep coming back for more... felt like a pain junky!
You see working out needs endurance and long-suffering, one has got to be have a no-matter-what attitude... i will see this through! I have learnt that life will through at you curve balls and you have to learn the art of hitting them and making sure its a home-run while you are at it. I want to encourage each and everyone of you to embrace those that are going through this journey of weight loss and sorting out their lives; its not an easy journey at all, give them a call or sms or just encourage when you see them. God is the ultimate encourager but He uses man to do the work for HIM.
FYI: I am going back to the GYM tonight.......
I also realized i need to make extra income so that i have disposable income to make sure my journey easier. In this regard, my friend Tariro and my sister Lucy will be throwing Weigh In Parties;
We want to create an opportunity for you to Weigh In every second month to track your progress. We therefore have put together a dynamic team of experts who will assist in making the journey a whole lot easier for you. There will be an after party so we dance the weight away!!! There is also an opportunity to buy table selling space for weight loss, dieting and exercising products only! Limited tables available. For more information RSVP to Tariro Tandi 0772211437 and Tendai Wenyasha Garwe 0772888596. Book early to avoid disappointment. Can be bought via ecocash $10 |
