JOB's friends, What kind of a friend are you?

i am so much inspired by the way job held on tight and just believed that God was going to do His thing, God did not dare curse God, not even a word or a thought. You know this is a very crazy season we are in, i have sen a lot of my friends going through of of their toughest seasons yet, and they just pressing on. At time we think that, my situation is the worse possible one, and no one, can understand what is going on with you.

I am not sure wat is going with you (yes you, reading this post) but i know that you must be in a season that you need some people to just sit with you, like Job's friends Chapter 2 from vs 11 -13. At times you do not need much from those that are close and dear to you, but for them to be just there, not even say a thing, but sit with you and not even utter a word, solitude, just to show that we see you grief, we love you and we are here, they sat with Job for 7 days. Now, now, i know we do not have 7 days to spare, but surely you have a sms, or a call or something to show that you see and understand their grief.

I have had wonderful friends and family, that are there for me always. I was saying to some people yesterday (at pastor Vimbayi Mahiya's Father's funeral) that there are times you need your friends and those you love, when you get married, have a child, when you get robbed and when someone dies. I might have left out some of the times, but am sure you understand where i am coming from, To just be there for those you call friends or family, its vital.

When they are weak, you are strong, when you are strong they are weak, it goes without say. You know i have days when i am strong, and have encouraged myself in the Lord through the word and worship, i look for people i can encourage and hold their hand through the season they are going through. We need to move away from being seasonal friends and be those that are true and constant. However if you do know that the relationship is seasonal, then be effective in the season, you have been assigned in that person's life. If you are there to encourage, restore, bless, pray, deliver, love, or just be there, then do that, because there will come a season, when your needs will need these friends.

If you look in chapter 3 of Job, his friends then remind him of how strong he has been for others and an encourager and all, and now he has grown weak, and that is were they come in to remind him of whose he is, who he is, and whom his God is. this is amazing. i am loving Job so much and i have a better understanding of who he did it, he was confident in his God firstly and then he had a solid support structure, however, the wife leaves a lot to desire, that why Pastor E' says, are you marrying a wife or a knife. i will nt even go into that one, whom you marry wat wat, but yes, you need to know whether this person can stand by you and still believe in you, not falter when trouble come, hanzi curse God and die, eeeeeeeeee, abominationwooo.

Job took a while to get out in the place he was at because his loss was great, but he eventually did. And it didnot say he did not trust his God no! We all need time to mourn, but not throwing pity-parties, go through the emotions and carry on with life without dwelling to much on the event look forward with hope, that God's perfect will, shall come to pass, and your future is much better than your past. I for one is a person, who shelves my emotions and avoid dealing with them, and then when i least expect it, the creep up on me, and i feel emotionally exhausted, tired and in-between emotions. If someone asks me, whats wrong, i will probably say i do not know, which is true, because i am not sure which issue is surfacing, what happened, when and why. But Job, went through the emotions and friends listened, and helped, or not i doono, but he went through the emotions.

Well be there for someone, especially those you hold close, and then be random as well, and be there for those that seem like they do not have anyone, and see if God will not cause a great blessing to come upon you. We give out of the abundance of our hearts, wats in yours? What have you been banking in your heart, can we withdraw it and give it to someone? I know the rich have many friends, and we always focus on financially rich only, did you know the rich in love too have many friends, the rich in peace, the rich in encouragement, the rich in grace they too have loads of friends, the poor at these too have nothing, even their own neighbours and family despise them

What kind of a friend are you?

Hold me Lord.........

ok, so where to start its a monday and almost a week after i got robbed, the things i had spent my life working for, you wake up and there is nothing, like nothing in the house. i remember the day so clearly i did not want to think, my usual problem, i just carried on like there was nothing wrong, told myself, be strong don't be silly, people will think u do not have faith. Yes i was grateful noone got hurt, that they got in and out without hurting anyone i loved, but the biggest thing they had hurt was my heart and my will power to just trust. i feel so violated and aaaaaarrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh anger is somewhere there in the mix of things.

i know myself to have gone thru really crazy thing in like, facing domestic violence, staying in musasa project, being a single mother. loosing a man i had given my best years to someone else, then going thru a divorce, being alone, with my son and finding my way with Christ in me only, i know iknow, most christians would then say yes, thats all u need, and yes i know that, but there comes a point in you life you are like Lord, when is it my turn to experience sweet victory. one thing i know is that even those that love you will never know or understand wat is going on inside you, or how much you need help, and how far the help should go.

then you are those that think they are doing you a favour to talk to you, and that my life would stop without them, well that was like random, but hey, a girl need to go random at times.
Then you are in line to be a deacon and there are the watchdogs that just sit around and wait for you to make a mistake and take u out. then people forget that u need time to self and cmy child, they just dump on u things, ok, i know i allow them as well, but am better now, i can even say No, when i see it fit too. pressure! ok that was random too.

I am so weak, i feel like heish Lord, saka, ndosvika riini, ndichicelebrator other people's victories. Yes i know stand, having done all to stand, and like i said to my brothe r Bvumai, then why d i do all the standing while others are sitting or lying down, my legs will swell ka. . Yes yes, i hear you christians, its darkest before dawn, huh? ok, then its pitch black right now, someone tell me what time is it right. It is doing my head in. Yes, do not be fooled, i love my God i know what He has done for me and whta He keeps doing, am just tired. You hear people say the devil is there to steal kill and destroy, i even said that when i got robbed, and then today it hit me, why am i just content with the first half of John 10:10 and then when is my But He has come to give you life and life more abundantly.

i know we celebrate even the smallest of breakthrus, but heish, i would so love big ones. In my church there is a course called walking free, i thought to myself, maybe i need to go wash myself in something, and then i did, in the blood of Jesus, but ok, now wat, wait?? hmmmmmmmmm, heish the Juanita kinda wait, ahhhh! well i have not even exercised because handina strength yacho, i really am waitign to see, when it is my turn to just say heeeeeee! and i am thinking if i feel like this, how is my son, he is young and really needs the cover and support, i think i need to slow down and just be with Tinayemudiwa, but then again, a support system that is strong has helped me come this far.

Tinayemudiwa does not even feel secure to be home anymore, he wants out, because he consistantly thinks matsotsi will come and steal him this time. and to add insult to injury his dad, plays passive dad, and when it suits him, he looks for him, i just want him to be there for his son, call him, talk to him, i know he is going to the uk to see his dad, but then wat? will he feel loved and covered and protected and cherished. i fear that he will come back rejected and i will have a lot of damage control to do. ok, i have so many thougts right now and i did not even think i had all this.

i want my mother home, like seriously, as serious as a heart attack. there is no place u should go without your mother, (that too goes for my son, uk, hmmmm) i miss my mother, there is one time in april, my sister had just moved back from the uk for good, and we had a huge fight, and all i need was to be somewhere i was loved and cared for, i went to my dad's house(lol big mistake) Charity, my father's wife, whom by the way has never been abused or shouted at by anyone for coming to be a second wife, decides to illtreat me, all i know is wat goes around comes around, maybe not on you, but on the next generation. if you steal someone's husband be rest assured your daughter will experience the same thing, someone will take her, ok random again, focus tendi.

so Lord, ok, this is my simple plee today, hold me! i need you to be tangible right now, my emotions seem to be all over like body lotion, and yes i am strong, yes i can fight, and yes i ca do all things thru christ who strengthens me! so here i am Lord desperate for a touch, to hear your voice, to see your greatness, to shout and see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. well then i gues psalm 91 will have to get tired with me, because i will meditate on it day and night, i am not forgotten, i am the apple of God's eye, He brags about me all the time and likes to show off of my faithfulness.

there is no other name, the main name is the name of Jesus, He is able................