goodbye>>>>> see you later or not!

at times i wonder when men pursue women if they are serious and are in it for the long hole. i have i thing twice now in my life have given my all to men and they have taken my heart, ripped it out and did the Mexican hat dance on it. left me totally crushed and broken and they carry on with their lives like nothing happened!

so one would ask what have you learnt from this? my friend and sister Maureen always says to me love with your all, and say i gave it my all and leave without regrets! well i have no regrets, well i think, all i wanted is them is to love me very much the same way i loved them i guess, that's my only regret.

so if they asked be to be theirs again, what would i require from them? i wonder? because when they wanted me to love them for the very first time they acted like their life depended on it! manje when u say yes, they treat you like dog poo. come on, just be men of your word!!!

i wonder if they know, they don't make women like me anymore, they love for different reasons other than being they just love you! women have become very cunning. sha, where do u get women like me seriously, i don't know, if you can find them tell me where and i will beat it, lol, just kidding i ain't furniture.

i am done with people treating me like a lesser citizen and yah, ah, this was just venting session and well, i don't feel the best, but venting helps, i just want to know kuti varume vanombodei ahhh!

what have i learnt from this? that love is not enuf and there are no guarantees in life, well and one thing i know is love has this way of  keeping a stain that might not be removable, a stain for life. so i will be healing for a while people and yes i will be thinking of the great times and beautiful moments, and now its just a memory.

hanzi naNelly - just a dream

ini na Jesu vangu, He will never let me down!

2012 an its joys - Part 1

Lol, OMG, its been almost a year since i blogged, i mean like seriously, my brain was not on leave that i know, i think, i just became too lazy to write, or maybe face book took over because you get more hits and more comments.

This year, is the year i turn 30 *huge sigh* yes i said it 30years old! that means i am fastest approaching 40, and i can not wait for life to start beginning then, why not now, where i am, with who i have and  what i have.

so my son broke his arm on monday and i was like heish, you see, u can just loose an arm, and have not fully lived. so live each day as if it were the last day. My son, even though he broke his arm, he is all over like body lotion, playing and running (even though running broke his arm).

so hallo 2012, am ready for you, are you ready for me? i am going to love hard, play hard, profit hard, work smart and pray intimately, so welcome back Tendai, 2012 is embracing and loving you deeply!

xoxo