goodbye>>>>> see you later or not!

at times i wonder when men pursue women if they are serious and are in it for the long hole. i have i thing twice now in my life have given my all to men and they have taken my heart, ripped it out and did the Mexican hat dance on it. left me totally crushed and broken and they carry on with their lives like nothing happened!

so one would ask what have you learnt from this? my friend and sister Maureen always says to me love with your all, and say i gave it my all and leave without regrets! well i have no regrets, well i think, all i wanted is them is to love me very much the same way i loved them i guess, that's my only regret.

so if they asked be to be theirs again, what would i require from them? i wonder? because when they wanted me to love them for the very first time they acted like their life depended on it! manje when u say yes, they treat you like dog poo. come on, just be men of your word!!!

i wonder if they know, they don't make women like me anymore, they love for different reasons other than being they just love you! women have become very cunning. sha, where do u get women like me seriously, i don't know, if you can find them tell me where and i will beat it, lol, just kidding i ain't furniture.

i am done with people treating me like a lesser citizen and yah, ah, this was just venting session and well, i don't feel the best, but venting helps, i just want to know kuti varume vanombodei ahhh!

what have i learnt from this? that love is not enuf and there are no guarantees in life, well and one thing i know is love has this way of  keeping a stain that might not be removable, a stain for life. so i will be healing for a while people and yes i will be thinking of the great times and beautiful moments, and now its just a memory.

hanzi naNelly - just a dream

ini na Jesu vangu, He will never let me down!

2012 an its joys - Part 1

Lol, OMG, its been almost a year since i blogged, i mean like seriously, my brain was not on leave that i know, i think, i just became too lazy to write, or maybe face book took over because you get more hits and more comments.

This year, is the year i turn 30 *huge sigh* yes i said it 30years old! that means i am fastest approaching 40, and i can not wait for life to start beginning then, why not now, where i am, with who i have and  what i have.

so my son broke his arm on monday and i was like heish, you see, u can just loose an arm, and have not fully lived. so live each day as if it were the last day. My son, even though he broke his arm, he is all over like body lotion, playing and running (even though running broke his arm).

so hallo 2012, am ready for you, are you ready for me? i am going to love hard, play hard, profit hard, work smart and pray intimately, so welcome back Tendai, 2012 is embracing and loving you deeply!

xoxo

Question?

From your experience are Christians boring? and pleas look beyond your circle of influence...

2011

This is a different year for me, i will look at life more positively, and less fearful. A lot of things have passed me by because i have been afraid of either the unknown, being rejected or what people will say.This is where i draw the line! i want it to be a year to remember, much better in terms of decision and growth, that i become a better friend and all other portfolios that i cover, to be more self confident and courageous and always thank God for the bad the happened for he prevented the worst that could have happened. There will be definitely less pity parties and more door building for opportunities to knock at my door. to love better and be more open and understanding. i definitely will be trying wearing makeup and smiling more often (i do have a killer smile) lol!

This christmas

I really missed my mum! She has been living and working in the uk. I wanted to be with her and eat her food and laugh over a bottle of good red wine, its been 5yrs now. To all my friends and family whose mothers are still alive, treasure them and love them, appreciate them. I feel like this yet my mother is stil alive. My darling lil sister Vee lost her mother on the 20th of december and my heart and prayers go to her. There is a lot a girl needs their mother for, it doesnt matter how old you are. Well its really beyond mothers, its loved ones. Life is too short, give love and live life without holding back! This christmas, i learnt that family nd friends are priceless and we should treasure them always! God bless lets be like Christ and give mass love, while edifying one another and glorify God! I called and smsd all i treasure this christmas.I love you mum, i love you dad, i love you son, i love you family (God given and self selected), i love you friends, best of all its because christmas is the time the word became flesh. Not the best xmas, but i definately learnt love this christmas...

LOL! making me laugh is a cause for attraction.....

i wouldn't trade anything for joy in my life, to laugh and forget myself in the overflow of peace and joy. You know a girl has to laugh, it is very important for me especially, i love the adrenaline and the intensity of laughter, it helps me regulate my heart, free exercise and so much more laughter does for you. When i finish laughing i have this satisfaction, that nothing else except laughter would have satisfied me like that, lol, LOL, just the thought of laughing makes me break out into laughter, heish LOL, it is even sweeter when the joy is in the Lord, it even gives you strength.

i am reading an e-book "Why men don't listen and women can't read maps", in this book, it listen the things women look for men in man in their order which i definitely subscribe to; in order of importance are as follows;-
A
What Women
1. Personality
2. Humour
3. Sensitivity
4. Brains
5. Good body

food for thought..... for the men this is FYI, and women, please respond, do you agree

However, nonetheless a girl has got to laugh, i mean seriously, i would be more attracted to a man who goes out of his way to keep me between smiling and stitching laughter! that's me TendaiWenyasha!LOLEST!!!!

i like a friend and i want to tell him but......

i know that friends are friends because there is an attraction of some sort to each other, and there is so much link and love that at times i becomes all messy. You can be attracted, physically, spiritually,mentally, economically, sensually. intellectually, socially, academically, entertainmentically. or whatever else that made you friends in the first place.

i know i have great friends, the problem is my friends, the guys, they are such great friends i know i can recommend them to any of my girl friends. Just be careful to not fall in love with a friend, been there done that and got the t-shirt. AAm not saying there is anything wrong with it, but it only becomes a problem, when theyare not into you like that, and mostly its the ladies that like the guys and the guy is not interested, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Anyway i like a friend and i want to tell him but, what if its like the first time i liked a friend and they did not like me that way back?